An Anchor of the Soul

So there's a ton floating around in my brain and my kids are about to wake up so I will try my best to see if I can get this out.  There have been SO MANY things that the Lord is speaking to my heart in the past couple of weeks.  Many of them I can't put into words yet because they haven't processed fully yet.  I haven't come to the other side yet.  Still walking in the lessons, so I don't have much to say about them yet.

But I will say that Jesus has been speaking about His Word.

To my heart.
To christian's heart.
Through times of prayer.
Through sweet people in our church.
His word keeps coming up, in all it's beauty.  And although the last few weeks have been a bit intense, I have to say that His word has kept me grounded.  Dominic Balli has an awesome song that I was listening to this week (okay all his songs are awesome, but this one in particular) and it says, "I've been in valleys and mountains, rest comes and peace like a fountain....His word keeps me grounded...I know You are there, You are there no matter where life goes, You are there..."  And I have to say, that has been so true this year.

Moving to Denver...leaving a loving, sweet church family...going somewhere that no one thought we should go...starting from nothing at all but the call of God in our hearts...it has been a walk of faith for sure.  It hasn't always been easy to discern what is our flesh and what is the heart of God.  We aren't perfect.  Just sinners who are so stoked to be saved that we just have to share it with others.  But in that, theres a lot of room to not be sure of what we are doing, how we should do it, if we are even hearing the heart of Jesus.

That's where the Word comes in.  The word of God has been like an anchor to me these past months and I have never been more in love with the Savior who bore my sins upon the tree for me because of it.  

Hebrews 6:19 tells us
"This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast..."

That is what God's word has been to me.  When my emotions want to run away like a kite in the wind...He is my anchor.  When waves are tossing the boat of life...He is my anchor.  When people hurt or disappoint or misunderstand...He is my anchor.

There are days when I just want to sit and listen to my Saviors voice speak and never leave my corner of the bedroom where I read each morning.  But that would be escapism and anyway God's word is my anchor, my strength, my shield....but that doesn't play out as me hiding away from the world.  If I am really hearing from Him, He will prompt me to get up...to share His love with anyone I meet...to pray with more diligence...to clean my house and feed my babies with a heart that knows how much that means to Jesus...to praise Him in the "everyday".

You see its in His word that I catch a glimpse of His glory...His nature...His character...His heart.  It's so easy in my mind or in this world to forget how loving He is, how HOLY He is, how much He loves the little children, how much His heart is for the outcast and the poor, how much He wants UNITY even among believers who differ in the minor areas.  Hey, it's in His word that we find the answers to those minor differences!
His word teaches us to pray.
His word shows us what worship is really to look like and to do in our hearts.
The model for parenthood and marriage and friendship and love...it's ALL FOUND IN HIS WORD!
There is nothing that I need that can't be found there.
And there are days when we read and think, "All righty then.  Hmmm.  That wasn't earth shattering."  But it is as we continually pour things into our heart, hide them there, make them our own, that He is able to link by link by link anchor us deeper and deeper into HIM.  

Like a boat in a storm, things might get rocky, but I wont be moved.  I mean, I will be moving up and down back and forth a bit, but I wont lose ground.  I won't wake up after the storm subsides and find that I am in the middle of the ocean, so far from where I wanted to be.  Because, lets face it, on our own we wander.  And we end up places we never thought we would be.

Feeling lost today?  A bit far from shore?  Dude, dig into His word!  Plan a time every day to say Lord I want to see Your face, hear Your heart.  I promise you, when you get to heaven NO ONE WILL SAY THEY WISHED THEY READ THEIR BIBLE LESS OFTEN.  It is a beautiful love letter from a Lover seeking to share His heart.  Let's not miss out on this anchoring, stabilizing gift that shows us the very heart of our God!  I am so thankful for this rocky season because I can honestly say it has been so good.  Things have been a bit tough here and there, but the GOOD that has come out of each difficulty FAR outweighs the difficulty itself.  Without God's word as my anchor, I know that in my flesh I would not be able to say that.  It is the very breath of God and transforms our hearts from the inside out, renews perspective, imparts wisdom and insight.  AGH! I could go on forever, and I hear my kiddos moving around so I will just wrap it up here.  Pray for me to dig deeper into His word every single day.  And I will pray the same for you.

Love from Colorado,